so, overall, today was pretty good...
woke up, showered, and called WeeZle at Chase's. apparently, he couldn't come to Apple Harvest Fest with us today, but, that's alright. i'm not so sure it would have been all that much fun for him anyways. i got a bunch of free stuff there, likeeee an orange shirt, carabeaner, cd case, gunlock, notepad, stickers...and a bracelet for 25cents. yesh. free stuff is awesome.
i drove home, waited a little bit, and WeeZle came at a bit after 1ne o'clock. i had wrapped up his present as if it was a bouquet of flowers. he opened it and, yes, it was in fact, a meat tenderizer. harhar. it was pretty. then we just hung out until a little after 4pm, when Chase picked him up again. fucking 4our [it was actually kind of 3hree..] hours. my asssss. =[ i'm glad that i got to see him though. i miss him so fucking much.
so when he left, and my mother and jim went for a ride, i came out to the living room and played on the computer for a bit. when my mother and jim returned, i went back into my room [i don't like it when she's in the same room or vicinity as me. it makes me extremely uncomfortable.], i decided to make some more bracelets or such. had bracelet-er's block [as in 'writer's block'], so i decided to go over to Nana's to see if there were still any beads there from when i was a youngster. we couldn't find any, so she offered to go to wal*mart so we could go get some. she asked me if i wanted my Uncle Tim's old war jacketthing, and i actually kinda like it, and it's getting to be that goddamned time of year that i actually might need a jacket, so i took it off her hands. =] then we went to wal*mart. for the record, wal*mart is a ton less expensive [beadwise] than ben franklin's. i got a neon package, a glow-in-the-dark package, and a metallic [pearly] package. i also got a lovely organizerthing box. when we got home, me and Nana organized all the different colors into the box. i love organizing. it gives me a certain comfort and satistfaction. not to mention, it's a good waste of time [note: good]. then i walked back over to my mother's.
i've been watching america's next top model quite a bit lately [considering they play an entire season of it back-to-back], and it sort of makes me think. i think that i am [continuing in] growing up, physically [and emotionally]. i can actually see potential in myself. i think i am starting to find certain things that just work for me. and no, you don't have to remind me that i'm not as attractive in a ponytail, but i really don't care, because ponytails are just easier, so shut up. but, yeah, i'm just gonna shut my face up about my face for now. because i really don't know what i'm talking about.
oh yeah, i almost forgot. at the apple harvest festival, i was at the table where they sell the dover city jail shirts that i have, and i was saying that this years weren't nearly as good as the years before [the awesomeness wasn't on the back. it was just generic information crap.], and the guy that was working behind the table was like
"ohhh, you could get like, a youth one, and cut the middle on the neck ::holds imaginary boobs::. don't you people like to do that?"
i just fucking gave him a dirty look, said uhhhhhhh no? and walked away. that really pissed me off though. a] you're like, 45+ years of age. see ya later, pedophile. b] this counter is concerning a JAILLLLL. why don't you spend a few years or so there sometime? someone will definitely plug your hole up there. and no, i'm not just talking about your mouth. = SHUT UP AND TAKE IT LIKE A BITCH.
that is all.
earlier, my mother came into my room and asked me if i wanted to do anything tonight. no. well, what about tomorrow? are you going to see WeeZle tomorrow? no, i'm not allowed to. well maybe you can, if you don't tell on me... . sooo, i was a bit torn about that. like, OBVIOUSLY i want to be with WeeZle. of course. and i was a little gracious that she would give me a chance to. but, on the other side. that is directly disobeying my father's punishment, and to allow me to do something he told me specifically not to do, and ENCOURAGING me to sneak around, that just makes me want to spit on her. to turn on her co-parent like that, it's just absolutely dispicable. i would never want my husband [whether it be current or ex] to steer our children away from something that i directly pointed them towards. it's just wrong. so, out of respect for my legitimate parents [not including my mother], and just for fear of them finding out that i did that, i don't think i'll be seeing WeeZle on the morrow. also, i have all of this week to hang out with him, since he's not in driver's ed anymore, so i can just see him on monday or whatever. seeing him tomorrow just wouldn't be worth what would happen if i was caught for it. and i am now trying to decide if i SHOULD tell my stepmom about my mother telling me to disobey her. i wont though, most likely, because, i probably COULD use that someday, and if i blow my mother's cover this time, then maybe she wont give me another, better chance ( some other time.Collapse )
i Love You, WeeZle.